Hope and Loss

It's a few weeks from the 32nd anniversary on my Mom's death. 32 years without her. I was 12 years old when she passed away unexpectedly, and I seen her die. My memory is quite clear on her death and the days leading up to the funeral, her funeral. There's some things in this life you can't forget, although easier I can't forget. She didn't die in a horrific accident, a silent killer stole her from us. Cerebral vascular Accident  , a stroke. One stroke so horrible, that she died instantly. One stroke! After seeing my own mom die from a stroke and witnessing the devastation of others from CVA when I worked in Nursing, I'm always reminded of what her quality of life might have been if she survived.

Don't get me wrong I would have loved to grow up with a mom but I also know she would of required continuous care . Perhaps being fed through a Tube and unable to speak. I would have hated seeing her beautiful brown eyes and knowing the helplessness behind them. 20 years after her death some drugs were developed to reverse some of the damage from a stroke if administered less than an hour after a stroke. These drugs may not have saved her because of the severity. I'm constantly reminded how unfair her death was to all of us. She was barely 42 years, a young wife and mother .Her Dad outlived her by almost 20 years. Her children were ages 18, 15, 14 and 12 when she died.

When I hear Alan Jackson's song "Sissy's Song" I am reminded of my mom. The song is about anger felt when losing a young wife and mother but hoping she flew up with Angels to Heaven. My mom was a devout Christian and can imagine her walking with Jesus. I can see her waiting for her babies to rejoin her one day.

Recently my Aunt experienced a stroke, so devastating no amount of medical treatment will return her to normal. Unless a miracle occurs I honestly have very little hope. She has been unresponsive for over a week but is showing signs of permanent brain damage. My cousin who is a RN , has some hope her mom might recover. She's optimistic and letting her Dad hope. Without Hope what is there? Faith , believing in God and Trust.

My mom's younger brother is hoping for his wife's recovery. Hoping and praying for a miracle. My Aunt's dedication to my uncle is surreal and vice versa. They were teenagers when they met close to 50 years ago. A love that is perfect and true. Their devotion to each other is something we all strive for but very few achieve. Their children and grandchildren are their world, devoting their time to them since retirement. My Aunt is the strength and now her kids need to be strong .

The Duggars opened Mouth.. Inserted Foot

Were they remorseful or sorry they didn't get their son help sooner? No they were not!!

He continued molesting his younger sisters, one was 4-5 years old, even when he told his parents. He continued fondling his sisters after telling his parents a second time. He molested 5 young girls more than 7 times. Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar were interviewed on Fox new , they were more concerned about how this affected poor Josh but not the ones he violated. They were more concerned about mentioning his record was released illegally than what he did to the girls. The records were obtained legally, 33 pages of statements given by the Duggar family (after the statue of limitations was up). 33 pages documented what Josh did to these girls. Included in the statement were lies by Jim Bob , claiming they got Josh help. Michelle's statement contradicted Jim Bob's statement by saying he didn't get help. They both got on TV ( Fox News) on Wednesday (6/03/15) and lied. I'm beginning to think Jim Bob didn't think the MOLESTATION of his daughters was a big thing as long as PENETRATION didn't occur. It's sickening and disturbing. The parents encourage their children to not hold hands during their courtship until they are engaged but being fondled by their brother is okay? What the hell!

Friday (6/5/15 ) the girls were interviewed on Fox news, clearly showing how brainwashed they are. Parroting their parents. Their interview along with the parents was a last ditch effort to save their show or perhaps get a spinoff.

The girls claim things like fondling between siblings happens in 2/3 of all homes. After being molested their parents implied this is "normal" because it happens in 2/3 of all homes! Perhaps it happens in some homes but not in 2/3 of all homes. Maybe this higher number reflects what is happening to those in their homeschooling community. I'm sure the girls felt guilty for tempting their brother because their church teaches them that very thing. Blaming the victim is a cop out for the perpetrator because why take responsibility for your own actions?

The girls have been victimized by the media but most of the victimization happened because of Jim Bob and Michelle years ago. Josh needed help !

Josh Duggar and the coverup

I've kept my mouth shot on my personal blog regarding the MOLESTATION Josh Duggar inflicted on young kids when he was 14 to protect his victims. But after almost 2 weeks of silence I will state my views. Josh did wrong, even if he ask God for forgiveness, he should have been prosecuted  by the laws of the land. But he wasn't in therapy nor was he subjected to prosecution because of the statue of limitations in Arkansas. Why is there a statue of limitation on molesting children, one of his victims was 4-5 at the time?  It's sick of you ask me and he needed counseling but his parents failed their children miserably. Michelle & Jim Bob Duggar endangered their daughters by allowing their molester to stay at home. They broke the law by harboring a criminal. They broke the law by not reporting the molester's crimes until he wouldn't be prosecuted. The only reason this is being discussed now is because the Duggar family said the records were released illegally. At the bottom of this post is the Arkansas Freedom of Information Act, the now expunged records were released legally. The only reason a police report was made when it was, was because someone from the Harpo studio reported it to the Arkansas State Police. A report was made to one of  the Duggar's friend, an officer now serving time for child pornography himself. There is more to this story probably more than we will ever know. The skeletons will continue to tumble from the hypocrits closet because they are now exposed for the liars they are. Michelle and Jim Bob were given the chance to teach, love, nurture and protect their kids but failed. The Duggar family is so brainwashed from the leaders of their cult known sex offenders. So why should we be surprised by the recent news?