Josh Duggar and Ashley Madison

Last week it was revealed Josh Duggar had two accounts on the website that encourages adultery called Ashley Madison. The sites motto is, " Life is short have an affair. " During his time on the adultery site he spent close to $1000, he spent money for a guaranteed affair. Did he hook up with anyone from this site? That question is yet to be answered. Josh released a statement a couple days later admitting to a pornography addiction and being unfaithful to his wife. Josh was also using another site also to meet women and had a private Facebook account to meet women for possible sex!

Josh is now denying he was on Ashley Madison. In my opinion if he was truly sorry and asking God for forgiveness he should be honest because God already knows his transgressions.

If I was Anna Duggar and he was my husband, I would kick his cheating butt to the curb. She is most likely depressed and heartbroken, blaming herself for Josh's problems because their church blames the wife for the husband straying not the husband. While she works through her "problems" and is told to blame herself, Josh is in REHAB. The rehab he is in is hard labor and bible study, not a real rehab with real licensed therapist. His therapy will last approximately 6 months for his pornography addiction, ironically much longer than it did when he molested his younger sisters. The rehab apparently doesn't discuss why the person is there either,  Josh will pray and work his problems away. How is this helpful? As a Christian I believe prayer fixes alot but Josh's problems go much deeper than that. He had a porn addiction as a teen that they thought was prayed away, apparently it wasn't. His current situation and problems could be the result of being isolated as a kid and their beliefs. Most teenage boys were allowed to socialize with people of the opposite sex, date and sow their oats but he wasn't allowed to be a normal kid. The family only socialized with people that think like they do and any interaction with the opposite sex was monitored. They taught their kids to be good Christians, but don't trust their children to make their own choices.

One of Josh's lovers did come forward, a porn star that was working in a strip club in Philadelphia. Josh paid her $600 for a private dance and $1500 for sex. According to Danica Dillon Josh treated her like a ragdoll and was very rough with her. Danica had sex with Josh a month later for $1000.

Intouch weekly gave Danica Dillon a lie detector test before the interview she apparently passed. So is she telling the truth? If she is it proves Josh committed adultery and spent around $4000.00 to do so.

I feel so sorry for Anna but she will forgive him this time and the next and the next.

Family Trauma

The last 8-9 weeks my family has been dealing with some devastating illnesses starting with my Aunt Linda's stroke. She is now awake, communicating  and able to move her limbs, so she is well on her way to recovery. By the time my family knew my Aunt was recovering , my family was facing many illnesses that could of led to death.

My Dad has COPD and after ignoring the fact he had pneumonia and congestive heart failure, his right lung collapsed. I visited with my dad earlier that day and it was bad. His respirations were 50-60 shallow breaths per minute, his fingers and lips were blue. I now know he was in respiratory failure and could have died at any minute. My family called 911 twice to speak with a dispatcher  to see what could be done because he is in his right mind and was refusing help. He could of refused and the EMT wouldn't have been able to help at all. By the time I arrived back at Dad's house for the second time he was agreeing to go to the hospital. Honestly I went back the second time to see if he went unresponsive and then call for help. He needed help and needed it now!

My stepsisters took him to the emergency room (I followed with my aunt) and he was so bad the nurses took him right back. The Dr ordered alot of test and xrays before discovering his lung was collapsed. The Dr ordered a chest tube be put in at bedside and it remained in place 9 days. Because he was weak after the ordeal and not able to move much in bed he became debilitated. He spent 3 weeks in the hospital and his care continues at home. He has a nurse visiting him 3x a week, physical therapist 3x a week and a nurse from the Area Agency of Aging. My dad is now on a walker, oxygen and has a catheter ( he can't pee without it). He does have two appointments this week so hopefully we can get some answers why he can't pee and if there's a way to fix it. Dad also has something wrong with his heart so we are hoping we get answers. He is 75 .

My dad is also underweight, severely underweight. He weighed 84 lbs when he was admitted and is up to 97lbs now. He lived alone and had alot of food on hand but I think he was filling up on coffee. His appetite is improving some but he's still filling up on the one thing with no nutritional value, coffee. As he recovers he should get stronger with God's help.

The thought of losing him scares me and I've been spending alot of time with him because most of my life I only had one parent. I pray each day we still have years, I will never be ready to let him go.