Josh Duggar and Ashley Madison

Last week it was revealed Josh Duggar had two accounts on the website that encourages adultery called Ashley Madison. The sites motto is, " Life is short have an affair. " During his time on the adultery site he spent close to $1000, he spent money for a guaranteed affair. Did he hook up with anyone from this site? That question is yet to be answered. Josh released a statement a couple days later admitting to a pornography addiction and being unfaithful to his wife. Josh was also using another site also to meet women and had a private Facebook account to meet women for possible sex!

Josh is now denying he was on Ashley Madison. In my opinion if he was truly sorry and asking God for forgiveness he should be honest because God already knows his transgressions.

If I was Anna Duggar and he was my husband, I would kick his cheating butt to the curb. She is most likely depressed and heartbroken, blaming herself for Josh's problems because their church blames the wife for the husband straying not the husband. While she works through her "problems" and is told to blame herself, Josh is in REHAB. The rehab he is in is hard labor and bible study, not a real rehab with real licensed therapist. His therapy will last approximately 6 months for his pornography addiction, ironically much longer than it did when he molested his younger sisters. The rehab apparently doesn't discuss why the person is there either,  Josh will pray and work his problems away. How is this helpful? As a Christian I believe prayer fixes alot but Josh's problems go much deeper than that. He had a porn addiction as a teen that they thought was prayed away, apparently it wasn't. His current situation and problems could be the result of being isolated as a kid and their beliefs. Most teenage boys were allowed to socialize with people of the opposite sex, date and sow their oats but he wasn't allowed to be a normal kid. The family only socialized with people that think like they do and any interaction with the opposite sex was monitored. They taught their kids to be good Christians, but don't trust their children to make their own choices.

One of Josh's lovers did come forward, a porn star that was working in a strip club in Philadelphia. Josh paid her $600 for a private dance and $1500 for sex. According to Danica Dillon Josh treated her like a ragdoll and was very rough with her. Danica had sex with Josh a month later for $1000.

Intouch weekly gave Danica Dillon a lie detector test before the interview she apparently passed. So is she telling the truth? If she is it proves Josh committed adultery and spent around $4000.00 to do so.

I feel so sorry for Anna but she will forgive him this time and the next and the next.

Family Trauma

The last 8-9 weeks my family has been dealing with some devastating illnesses starting with my Aunt Linda's stroke. She is now awake, communicating  and able to move her limbs, so she is well on her way to recovery. By the time my family knew my Aunt was recovering , my family was facing many illnesses that could of led to death.

My Dad has COPD and after ignoring the fact he had pneumonia and congestive heart failure, his right lung collapsed. I visited with my dad earlier that day and it was bad. His respirations were 50-60 shallow breaths per minute, his fingers and lips were blue. I now know he was in respiratory failure and could have died at any minute. My family called 911 twice to speak with a dispatcher  to see what could be done because he is in his right mind and was refusing help. He could of refused and the EMT wouldn't have been able to help at all. By the time I arrived back at Dad's house for the second time he was agreeing to go to the hospital. Honestly I went back the second time to see if he went unresponsive and then call for help. He needed help and needed it now!

My stepsisters took him to the emergency room (I followed with my aunt) and he was so bad the nurses took him right back. The Dr ordered alot of test and xrays before discovering his lung was collapsed. The Dr ordered a chest tube be put in at bedside and it remained in place 9 days. Because he was weak after the ordeal and not able to move much in bed he became debilitated. He spent 3 weeks in the hospital and his care continues at home. He has a nurse visiting him 3x a week, physical therapist 3x a week and a nurse from the Area Agency of Aging. My dad is now on a walker, oxygen and has a catheter ( he can't pee without it). He does have two appointments this week so hopefully we can get some answers why he can't pee and if there's a way to fix it. Dad also has something wrong with his heart so we are hoping we get answers. He is 75 .

My dad is also underweight, severely underweight. He weighed 84 lbs when he was admitted and is up to 97lbs now. He lived alone and had alot of food on hand but I think he was filling up on coffee. His appetite is improving some but he's still filling up on the one thing with no nutritional value, coffee. As he recovers he should get stronger with God's help.

The thought of losing him scares me and I've been spending alot of time with him because most of my life I only had one parent. I pray each day we still have years, I will never be ready to let him go.

Hope and Loss

It's a few weeks from the 32nd anniversary on my Mom's death. 32 years without her. I was 12 years old when she passed away unexpectedly, and I seen her die. My memory is quite clear on her death and the days leading up to the funeral, her funeral. There's some things in this life you can't forget, although easier I can't forget. She didn't die in a horrific accident, a silent killer stole her from us. Cerebral vascular Accident  , a stroke. One stroke so horrible, that she died instantly. One stroke! After seeing my own mom die from a stroke and witnessing the devastation of others from CVA when I worked in Nursing, I'm always reminded of what her quality of life might have been if she survived.

Don't get me wrong I would have loved to grow up with a mom but I also know she would of required continuous care . Perhaps being fed through a Tube and unable to speak. I would have hated seeing her beautiful brown eyes and knowing the helplessness behind them. 20 years after her death some drugs were developed to reverse some of the damage from a stroke if administered less than an hour after a stroke. These drugs may not have saved her because of the severity. I'm constantly reminded how unfair her death was to all of us. She was barely 42 years, a young wife and mother .Her Dad outlived her by almost 20 years. Her children were ages 18, 15, 14 and 12 when she died.

When I hear Alan Jackson's song "Sissy's Song" I am reminded of my mom. The song is about anger felt when losing a young wife and mother but hoping she flew up with Angels to Heaven. My mom was a devout Christian and can imagine her walking with Jesus. I can see her waiting for her babies to rejoin her one day.

Recently my Aunt experienced a stroke, so devastating no amount of medical treatment will return her to normal. Unless a miracle occurs I honestly have very little hope. She has been unresponsive for over a week but is showing signs of permanent brain damage. My cousin who is a RN , has some hope her mom might recover. She's optimistic and letting her Dad hope. Without Hope what is there? Faith , believing in God and Trust.

My mom's younger brother is hoping for his wife's recovery. Hoping and praying for a miracle. My Aunt's dedication to my uncle is surreal and vice versa. They were teenagers when they met close to 50 years ago. A love that is perfect and true. Their devotion to each other is something we all strive for but very few achieve. Their children and grandchildren are their world, devoting their time to them since retirement. My Aunt is the strength and now her kids need to be strong .

The Duggars opened Mouth.. Inserted Foot

Were they remorseful or sorry they didn't get their son help sooner? No they were not!!

He continued molesting his younger sisters, one was 4-5 years old, even when he told his parents. He continued fondling his sisters after telling his parents a second time. He molested 5 young girls more than 7 times. Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar were interviewed on Fox new , they were more concerned about how this affected poor Josh but not the ones he violated. They were more concerned about mentioning his record was released illegally than what he did to the girls. The records were obtained legally, 33 pages of statements given by the Duggar family (after the statue of limitations was up). 33 pages documented what Josh did to these girls. Included in the statement were lies by Jim Bob , claiming they got Josh help. Michelle's statement contradicted Jim Bob's statement by saying he didn't get help. They both got on TV ( Fox News) on Wednesday (6/03/15) and lied. I'm beginning to think Jim Bob didn't think the MOLESTATION of his daughters was a big thing as long as PENETRATION didn't occur. It's sickening and disturbing. The parents encourage their children to not hold hands during their courtship until they are engaged but being fondled by their brother is okay? What the hell!

Friday (6/5/15 ) the girls were interviewed on Fox news, clearly showing how brainwashed they are. Parroting their parents. Their interview along with the parents was a last ditch effort to save their show or perhaps get a spinoff.

The girls claim things like fondling between siblings happens in 2/3 of all homes. After being molested their parents implied this is "normal" because it happens in 2/3 of all homes! Perhaps it happens in some homes but not in 2/3 of all homes. Maybe this higher number reflects what is happening to those in their homeschooling community. I'm sure the girls felt guilty for tempting their brother because their church teaches them that very thing. Blaming the victim is a cop out for the perpetrator because why take responsibility for your own actions?

The girls have been victimized by the media but most of the victimization happened because of Jim Bob and Michelle years ago. Josh needed help !

Josh Duggar and the coverup

I've kept my mouth shot on my personal blog regarding the MOLESTATION Josh Duggar inflicted on young kids when he was 14 to protect his victims. But after almost 2 weeks of silence I will state my views. Josh did wrong, even if he ask God for forgiveness, he should have been prosecuted  by the laws of the land. But he wasn't in therapy nor was he subjected to prosecution because of the statue of limitations in Arkansas. Why is there a statue of limitation on molesting children, one of his victims was 4-5 at the time?  It's sick of you ask me and he needed counseling but his parents failed their children miserably. Michelle & Jim Bob Duggar endangered their daughters by allowing their molester to stay at home. They broke the law by harboring a criminal. They broke the law by not reporting the molester's crimes until he wouldn't be prosecuted. The only reason this is being discussed now is because the Duggar family said the records were released illegally. At the bottom of this post is the Arkansas Freedom of Information Act, the now expunged records were released legally. The only reason a police report was made when it was, was because someone from the Harpo studio reported it to the Arkansas State Police. A report was made to one of  the Duggar's friend, an officer now serving time for child pornography himself. There is more to this story probably more than we will ever know. The skeletons will continue to tumble from the hypocrits closet because they are now exposed for the liars they are. Michelle and Jim Bob were given the chance to teach, love, nurture and protect their kids but failed. The Duggar family is so brainwashed from the leaders of their cult known sex offenders. So why should we be surprised by the recent news? 

Fundie Ken & Barbie

The Ken & Barbie of the Fundamentalist world has given birth, Erin Bates Paine is a Mommy.

Erin has been married less than two years and suffered a devastating miscarriage, before carrying her son to term. The Paine's family size may be limited because each pregnancy could be life threatening to Erin so I'm guessing 2-4 children for Erin and Chad. The Paine family will cherish each life given to them and not rush into pregnancy after pregnancy like other fundamentals.  I'm sure they are thanking God for each new day and allowing them to have their son.  I'm glad she delivered safely and has the opportunity to be a mother.

The Princess has a name..♡

Her Royal Highness Princess Charlotte Elizabeth Diana. At the time of the divorce of Prince Charles and Diana the Princess of Wales, HRH Prince William promised his Mum that he would name his daughter after her. The promise the young Prince made was kept.

Charlotte is the middle name of Kate's sister Pippa and was a name of past members of the Royal Family besides honoring Prince Charles.

Elizabeth was chosen to honor the Queen . Elizabeth is also Kate and her mother's middle name.

Diana was chosen to honor Prince William's mum Diana the Princess of Wales.

My rambles

I am a fan of Laura Ingalls Wilder because of reading her books as a child. Pioneer life interests me but like the modern world also.

One of the things that fascinates me most about families such as the Ingalls is when they would move someplace to "start over". They would sell what they could and only take essential items with them because wagon space was limited. Personal treasures or small family heirlooms might be taken along if kept in a small trunk but they needed room for bedding, tools, gun, clothing, cookware and provisions for the trip (for humans & horses) besides the family. Sometimes they would travel for weeks or months before settling miles or days away from other people. They had to be self sufficiant and work hard. It was a do or die situation.  They built their own home and furnished it with hand made furniture. They grew most of their food and Charles hunted or fished. On the rare trips to town Charles would get the essential items they couldn't provide for themselves from the land. There was no malls or even a Walmart so some things that they needed had to be ordered and they would wait weeks or months for.

A majority of their belongings were essential or practical, money was not wasted.

A trip that we can make in a couple hours might have taken the Ingalls weeks.

My dad's childhood was similar to the Ingalls except they didn't move around. They grew and canned their own vegetables. They raised (and slaughtered) hogs and chickens. They had a cow that provided milk for drinking and making butter, chickens for eggs. Other than a few things they couldn't grow they were self sufficient. My Dad would wake up before 5 a.m. to do his chores before breakfast and then walk 2 miles to catch the bus for school. After school he would do chores and do homework before dinner. He would walk three miles to attend church on Sunday, my grandfather was the minister. He met my mom at that church. He graduated high school in 1958 and joined the Air Force, leaving the farm life behind. Dad was the youngest of 12, 6 were born still or died shortly after birth. All born at home.

I wonder how many of us could live the way my dad was raised?

So much for my theory on Jessa

Jessa is pregnant and revealed the pregnancy today, she is due around her 1st anniversary. During Jessa's last trimester her sister Jill should be expecting her 2nd child and her sister- in -law, Anna, will be almost back in shape from her 4th pregnancy. Truthfully this family "breeds" like rabbits. There might be another little one on the way if the current courtship leads to marriage before November. You never know but this is the reality of a quiverfull wife, allowing God to decide family size. The family denies they are quiverfull but in reality they are.

I have no problem with large families as long as the parents are providing a majority of the care and the child is helping around the house occassionaly but that isn't the case with these families. Yes allowing the children to help teaches responsibility but it also denies the children the right to just be children when they are forced to raise their siblings. Their form of homeschooling also limits the children's future also, until just being a helpmeet and mother is the girls only option.

I am hoping Jessa and Ben have a healthy child, that they cherish each birth as sacred . I am hoping they choose not to exploit each moment of this pregnancy as a rating boost for 19 kids and counting. I am hoping Jessa will keep some of her "pregnancy" off  TV and remember each child is a treasure, a gift from God. I am hoping her first child is male so he will be allowed to be a child for longer than a girl would be allowed. I hope! I hope!

Is she..isn't she? Jessa Duggar

There has been some speculation lately whether or not Jessa Seewald is expecting her first child with Ben. I think she is but is choosing to remain silent at this time. Perhaps she is doing a Jessica Biel by not publically announcing her pregnancy until the impending "birth" can't be denied. She seems to enjoy privacy more so than her own family ,who would have made  the announcement on TV already.

Her own parents gained national recognition because of their extremely large family and that they continued to have children. Jessa like the older daughters became mothers to the younger Duggar kids, doing everything her own Mom should of done. If she is indeed pregnant I hope she enjoys the one on one time with her child after he/she is born.

Celebrity Pregnancy

I recently followed three celebrity pregnancies and was amazed how each was approached by the " mothers to be" and the fathers.

Catherine, the Duchess of Cambridge was severely underweight at the beginning of her second pregnancy and suffered with hyperemesis gravidarum. Kate had Hyperemesis Gravidarum during the first trimester. like she did during her first pregnancy with Prince George. After rest she did return to some of her Royal Duties but was dubbed the laziest royal by the media. Kate's clothing was chosen to remain stylish and disguise her growing baby bump as she got bigger. She did her last Official Royal Duty on March 27th and began her Maternity Leave the next day with the press not aware of when the new heir will be born.

*Neither Kate or William gave any information away including the gender or due date.

Speculation began last fall whether or not Jessica Biel was expecting her first child with husband Justin Timberlake. Jessica's clothing was chosen to hide her stomache and she made 2-3 movies during her pregnancy and visited her husband on his tour when she wasn't as busy besides planning to open an elite children's resturaunt in Los Angeles. Her life as a hollywood actress wasn't put on hold during the pregnancy. Justin and Jessica announced the pregnancy about 6 weeks before their son's birth. Jessica's career is based on actual talent and not childbirth.

*the Timberlake family is yet to exploit their son for financial gain.

Jill Dilliard announced to the media before the urine dried on the home pregnancy test that she and her husband Derick were expecting . I guess waiting to share this personal thing was too much for Jill  considering her families reality show is based on her parents having too many children. Every week Jill was posting new pictures of her growing baby bump and announcing to the world the gender. Her son's birth will be shown on TV in a couple weeks and has been shown on multiple news outlets his first few days of life. His birth didn't go as planned but that didn't stop the Duggar family from exploiting the youngest Dilliard. During her pregnancy besides spending time with her buddy team (children), she drove her husband to and from work but nothing else.

Most likely before Israel David Dilliard is 6 months old and the urine dries another pregnancy will be announced by Jill. She has to catch up with her mom after all.

Royal Baby Watch

Years ago as a young girl I watched the "Royal Wedding" of Prince Charles and Diana, the Princess of Wales, I was enchanted. Their marriage was doomed from the start but I now know she wasn't the commoner as we were made to believe she had some Royal blood herself. The wedding itself showed every little girl that becoming a princess could happen to anyone. We loved this quiet lady, who smiled nervously and face reflected love for her prince. But Charles was made to marry a Spencer and not his true love Camilla so the adoration wasn't mutual. As a young adult Diana was in the limelight and would soon become the most photographed person on the planet. She fullfilled her "duty" to the thone by producing the heir and the spare, Prince William and Prince Harry. Diana introduced her sons to a world most royals knew nothing about and loved them immensely.

After Diana's tragic death , the young Princes were not to be hounded by the press at their schools, their schools became safe havens. While at the university Prince William met his future wife Catherine and fell in love. In 2013 Catherine and William produced the Heir, Prince George, who is third in line to the throne. Any day now the "spare" will be born. Hopefully the baby will be a "Princess" and named after her paternal grandmother Diana but that most likely won't happen since the Queen has a say in the matter more so than Catherine, the Duchess of Cambridge. The Duchess has the love of her prince this time around.

*Bookies in the UK are betting on the gender and name of the 4th in line to the throne.

Proper grammar

I have several Pet Peeves but the biggest is how many people use "an" when they should use "and". Perhaps they are in a hurry, it's an online thing or maybe it's a failure of the education system, I really don't know. I realize I am the last person who should correct someone's spelling or proper use of words because English was my worst subject in school.

  I was reading at a college level at the age of 14, but using words properly and spelling were always my weak point. Still is! Thank goodness for spell check to correct me at times.

"And" and "an" have different meanings or usage. To be grammatically correct isn't always important but when it is done consistantly I see it as a failure of education.

The misuse of to, two and too is more acceptable to me. Two is the number "2".
"Too" is another way to say also...ie. " Rocky is coming to the two o'clock show too. " All three were used correctly.

But when I see .."Rocky an Alice are expecting puppies",  I cringe.  How hard is it to add a "d" and write "Rocky and Alice.....?"

I guess it irritates me because I see it alot online and on my facebook. Most of the people doing it know better. I said most!