By not officially getting diagnosed does that make my lack of insulin less real? My spikes continue to get higher even though I am watching eat bite I eat with vigilance. Resisting sugar and carbohydrates. Starch is almost non-existing in my diet. But yet the numbers are 2-3 times higher than normal. My husband believes if I eat healthier this will resolve itself. I've eliminated many things from my diet that causes glucose to elevate but I still get these ridiculous high numbers. My husband does not understand high blood sugar can damage organs and can kill. Low blood sugar can kill. Maybe his denial is way of coping with me having this. Maybe he's scared, I know I am and I haven't got the final verdict yet or even appeared before the judge (Dr). My husband has it in his head my reluctance to eat anything with sugar is a way to lose weight. Sure I can stand to shed a few pounds but I'm not obese. I feel bad that I yelled at him last night, "Too much sugar can kill me." My future is frequent testing and insulin. I just hope the diabetes can be controlled with pills and not injections.
Diabetes isn't a death sentence, most people live full lives as long as It's controlled and they follow medical advice. Right now my numbers are erratic because my body is not producing adequate insulin. I've been reluctant to seek help because once I get diagnosed it will be more real than the 351 I just tested and like many Americans I don't have health insurance. I could go through the ER because they will be legally obligated to treat me until I'm deemed stable. My high blood sugar is unstable and once I start insulin there is the danger of going too low.
I dread the future, most likely my future ,of hypodermic needles and insulin bottles.
I'm still new to this world but I do know my blood sugar drops 5-10 an hour between meals. I did a 12 hour fast and still had high numbers, not much lower than 12 hours before. That is my reality. I'm afraid of eating.
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