Hope

I wonder if other species feel the emotions we feel as human. I've had many hopes and dreams during my life. Some dreams that came true and other times the dreams become less important. I've had prayers answered at times but many remained unanswered. Perhaps God didn't answer the prayers for a reason? Things happen sometime without reason. It's unpredictable and often unpreventable. And we are unprepared.

I've hoped for longer lives for loved ones but at times that hope fades. Working in nursing I seen things some might consider miracles. I've learned to see things as they are and learned to not grieve. I've learned so much in 12 year of nursing. But yet I became unable to show sympathy because I've seen diseases and conditions progress. After many years of crying for my patients I turned that part of me off. It's a defense mechanism that I built around myself. Physicians and nursing staff eventually all build this wall. Until recently I had stopped crying.

I cried yesterday because I was entering uncharted territory. How could I comfort my husband if things didn't turn for the better? I'm hopeful that there is still time. Time to comfort, time to dream and time to hope.