I realize my genetics made my membership in this club happen and no pun intended, I was grandfathered in. But isn't there a way to quit this club I didn't want to join in the first place? Isn't there a trial membership I can opt out of without being penalized? Isn't there fabulous door prizes that doesn't include trips to the ER, pharmacy or lab? I never wanted to join this club of limiting carbohydrates, sugar and the mandatory finger pokes. I never wanted to join this world I knew so much about but yet I'm clueless about so much. I'm new to a diagnosis I never wanted and I'm forced to quickly make food choices I pray won't disrupt my health. I pray my liver doesn't betray me by releasing extra stored glycogen. I pray alot these days and celebrate each accomplishment.
These days I celebrate the days I resist the foods that can disrupt a shaky system. I celebrate successful finger pokes that yield enough blood so I don't need to poke myself again. I celebrate monitor readings that indicate the hyperglycemia is gone, for now and hopefully forever. I celebrate little things that I would overlook before. I celebrate earlier control of this monster that could very well control my health if I allow it.
I hope ..celebrate and start new everyday appreciating each new day I can try to win a battle I never wanted to fight.
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